First off, we have a Beachbody on Demand membership and it’s amazing. ‘Nuff said. And if anyone is interested, let me know and I will put you in touch with the best ‘coach’ in the world, Hannah McLeod. In all honesty, I’ve never met her in person. I started following Hannah on Instagram and realized how utterly awesome she was. I now consider her to be a great friend and hopefully I will meet her in real life someday.
Now, the point of this…
I have officially started the Morning Meltdown 100 program over for the 3rd time..and the final time, at least until I finish it. Third time is the charm, right? Isn’t that how it goes?
2020 is the start of a new decade, and the start of our new lifestyle.
I have also finally found the proper motivation and my “Why” for doing this.
My motivation is my health, my life, my future.
My mom has been going through some rough patches lately and has had some hospital stays. The end of 2019 was pretty hard. It’s truly made me realize how short life really is. When I get to be her age, or even just older, I want to know that I can still do things, anything that I want. If I keep going the way I am, I know that won’t be possible.
Justin and I have also had some very brutal and honest conversations over the past few months. It has been eye opening to see my health and, well…my weight, from his perspective. It wouldn’t bother him nearly as much if I was happy with myself, but I’m not. I am so mad and disappointed in myself that I let it get this far.
I have tried many, many times to lose weight and get in shape, but I have always given up. Always. I’ve never stuck with something. It gets hard or I get bored and I move on.
It almost broke my heart when he told me that if I can’t stick with a workout program when it does get hard, or I get bored, then why should he trust me to stick with this marriage when it gets hard, because it’s going to. We could not keep going the way we were.
I 100% never thought about it that way before.
He was absolutely right.
I told him for years – YEARS – that I am going to lose weight and get healthy by doing this or that, and I do…for maybe a week.
And then I quit. I give up.
Then a few months later I will tell him I’m trying something else. And then I quit. I give up.
Wash. Rinse. Repeat.
Over and over and over.
I have essentially been lying to him for the last 4 years.
Now, after that conversation, I have a new outlook on this.
I finally found my real ‘WHY’.
That elusive key that kept slipping away from me. The reason that I will keep going when it gets hard, or bored.
I’m doing this for my future, my marriage, my husband.
I’m doing this for my life.
And realizing that, it’s everything.
I plan on taking you all on this journey with me, so buckle up.
It’s going to be a bumpy ride.