These past couple weeks have been filled with some ups and downs.
I applied for the position of Executive Assistant to the Owner of the company I currently work for. After talking to the current assistant, the job sounded amazing. Like everything I would ever want in a position.
The week leading up to my interview, my anxiety kicked up to about 5,000%. It was horrible! So horrible! Not the interview, my anxiety.
After I quit working at the bank, I got rid of a lot of my dress clothes so finding something to wear for said interview was excruciating. Luckily, I had an amazing friend who texted and snapped with me all night until we had the perfect outfit so at least I went in swinging! Seriously, Kaitie, thanks for giving up your entire evening. It means a lot.
The interview went well, but I was the first out of 5 so I patiently had to wait a week. I wasn’t super confident about getting it, mostly because I knew the other girl from inside the company who interviewed for it and she is pretty great. I had started to compare myself to her but my wise friend mentioned above told me “Comparison is the thief of joy, babe. You do you!”
Comparison is the thief of joy. I seriously love that. Mostly because it’s so true! So now, whenever I start to compare myself to someone, I will remember that. There is no one else like me in the entire world, and for that I am grateful. Let’s face it, I don’t think the world could handle another me.
I was surprisingly not that disappointed that I didn’t get the job (the other girl did). I don’t think I was really expecting to get it. The only thing that really disappointed me was the fact that I found out I didn’t get it from Facebook. She had made a post about accepting her new position which made me realize that I had not been notified about not getting the job. This was new to me. I was very upset about what felt like a lack of respect for me as a current employee.
However, I went into work the next morning to a very nice email from the owner which soothed my ruffled feathers. He did make a great choice so I can’t be that upset about it.
Mostly, I am just glad that I tried for it. It gave me some more experience, got me out of my comfort zone (waaaaaay out) and helped me get to know the owner a little more too.
Sometimes, it isn’t about getting what you want. It’s having the courage to try and go after it. For me, that’s what really mattered.
And while in the process of waiting to hear back about the position, I had a quarterly review at work, where I found out I am doing great at my current job! Go team!
Tonight we had a fun game of Cards Against Humanity after hours since one of our remote co-workers was in town. It was a blast, and strangly weird to let out my dry, weird, creepy sense of humor to these people that I am around every day.
Also, the most bizzarely accurate cards I have ever encountered in CAH. This was also a random draw, where we just plucked a white card from the top of a stack and threw it down. No one looked at this white card first. Creeeeeeepy!
Be brave out there,